it takes time.

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we live in this society that is so “me…me…me” and full of instant gratification but what happened to patience? What about preparation? 

Over the past month – I’ve learned about patience and how difficult it is resist diving head first into certain goals, dreams and healing from setbacks or disappointments. But that constant “do…go….get that….” attitude calls for a self-evaluation. Not saying that striving is a bad thing – it most certainly isn’t. But when you force yourself to do stuff because of apparent investments or convenience – do you ever consider if it will help you grow or is it done due to certain societal expectations? 

doesn’t God give everyone a special and unique timeline to fulfill their purpose? what’s stopping us from seeking God before we seek Google, friends, family? What ever happened to respecting God’s own timing?

Just some things that I’ve been not only struggling with but growing to understand over the past month. Let’s embrace God’s blessing on our lives at this very beautiful moment. 

ps. I know I haven’t been blogging. I definitely want to try to do a post a week. I definitely try to check my motives these days. If I am not compelled to blog – I won’t force myself to do it.  Also – if you ever need to talk – don’t be afraid to drop a comment or email me at trw8aw@virginia.edu

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beautifully you. days 23-24.

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this post goes out to anyone who has ever felt less than. those who are constantly abused. to those who don’t know their worth.

we don’t realize how much power we have – we don’t have to drag our insecurities, our past experiences, or stereotypes with us. we can move forward to fulfill God-given purpose. Yes- the world can put us in boxes, shoot, we put ourselves in boxes. Break free….walk away.  See yourself and your God-given beauty, ability, and purpose.  

I was telling my friend the other than that there should be NOTHING that I want more than God’s presence, His approval, and His love. All other things come second. Insecurities set in when these things become idols and they can’t fill that void.  Let go of man-made idols – see beyond the material. 

You are beautifully and wonderfully made. titles and enhancements can NEVER compare to who you already are. 

 

“Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.
How precious are your thoughts about me,O God.
They cannot be numbered!”
Psalm 139:14-17
 
But now, O Jacob, listen to the Lord who created you.
O Israel, the one who formed you says,
“Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.
I have called you by name; you are mine.
Isaiah 43:1
 
Listen to me, all you in distant lands!
Pay attention, you who are far away!
The Lord called me before my birth;
from within the womb he called me by name.
Isaiah 49:1
 
What is the price of two sparrows—one copper coin? But not a single sparrow can fall to the ground without your Father knowing it. And the very hairs on your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are more valuable to God than a whole flock of sparrows. 
Matthew 10:29-31
 
You keep track of all my sorrows.
You have collected all my tears in your bottle.
You have recorded each one in your book
Psalm 56:8
 
But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners.
Romans 5:8
 
We know how much God loves us, and we have put our trust in his love.
God is love, and all who live in love live in God, and God lives in them.
1 John 4:16
 
 
Stay encouraged with the Word.

 

beautiful journey

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This morning I clinged to my pillow…I swear I hit the snooze button 6 or 7 times lol. But I knew I had to wake up early to tidy up. I ran downstairs  to clean my dishes (I know…I should always clean them before bed…I just had a moment of laziness smh) and as I was washing I turned my attention to this mini coffee packet near the dish detergent. On Sunday, Venture Christian Church gave me coffee (which was an excuse to buy an inexpensive coffee maker). I was about to brew some coffee. I have been really hype about coffee lately (meaning…SINCE SUNDAY LOL. I’ve been especially hype about the seasonal ones at Marshalls lol and then this random one I picked up at Food Lion [Mocha Swirl by Folger’s]).

For some reason I looked at the measurements – I noticed the Ounces and Grams conversions. I immediately thought “regardless of what measurement you use – the coffee will create multiple pots of coffee”. 

It just reminded me of the different indicators of success in our society. Reminded me that each person’s journey is not a one size fits all and that eventually we all will end up discovering our purposes. Some people prefer grams and others prefer ounces and that’s just fine with me. 

 

Stand tall and enjoy your unique beautiful journey. I know I am grateful for mines.

perfect timing.

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At this moment my computer is on E lol, but I wanted to write another post before I went to sleep. I feel so horrible that I haven’t done a post in about a month now!  I have been trying to get back into the swing of things and really I wanted to get my thoughts together before I posted again.

For the last two months, I have pretty much went on this spiritual journey and I can’t even find the words to describe the beauty/love/and peace I’ve felt in God. Like, I really can’t even fathom how far I’ve come in TWO months…..it really just brings me to tears instantly as I think about it. Coming home over the summer is always depressing for me, I don’t connect with anyone and I always feel like an outcast. Well…that’s how I used to be. See after the devil tried to come down on me soo hard, I started questioning EVERYTHING. But I vowed I wouldn’t let the devil get the best of my spirit. I fought back hard by staying in my Bible…every morning…every night.  My heart….my mind….my goals….my LIFE has truly transformed and it is all because of Him. I never felt whole as a person until this summer and it is soo beautiful.  

 I am just here to address a topic I’ve been struggling with for so long….TIMING. See I’ve always been very time conscientious. I thought everything had to be a certain way and a certain time. My life has always been by a timetable….high school. extracurriculars…college….job…etc.  Those goals had completely taken over my life in the last 9 years. 

As I connect more with people, I noticed the typical American timetable….especially for females. The biggest one is relationships and marriage. At one point in my life, I freaked because I had never been in a true relationship. Fail….after fail….after fail…after fail. Seriously yall….it really got tiring because I felt like I was putting in 100 percent and never getting it back…and all for what? …Just to achieve a typical American  table. I became obsessed with the idea of a relationship….it was beyond me how much I thought about relationships. In addition to relationships, careers/post grad goals had consumed my mind….I was freaking about it being my fourth year….if I would have a job….whether I should take the GRE. I seriously wanted to SCREAM because of all this crap I had piled on myself because of what SOCIETY wants. As I’ve drawn closer with God, I NO LONGER worry about these things. Seriously, they pop into my head….my trust in God dissolves them. 

See the world can have us fooled because we truly plan our lives around 4 or 5 big events….college….career….relationship….marriage….children. A WHOLE freaking life revolved around FIVE THINGS. As I meditate on this I am blown away by how much society influenced my thinking and I am sure everyone is feeling it as well. Five things…not saying these things are NOT important, but life shouldn’t be reduced to five events.

I don’t know if I am explaining this right….or if everyone will agree, but God truly gives us everyday of our lives to seek HIS beauty and be in HIS presence and we chase after things defined on society’s terms. I know, I know, God made marriage, BUT he made it in his own TIME. I know, I know…you may think God has created those people…those paper degrees…that fancy job….that car….that watch to bless you, but His love is beyond those things. 

I guess what I am trying to say is, STOP RESTRICTING YOURSELF….stop restricting your mind….stop worrying about those things because God’s timing is soo perfect, I just know it.  Ecclesiastes 3:1 says ” There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven…” 

As I read that verse, I am blown away because God has a time and a season for EVERYTHING. As I started to try to control my life…those guys I wanted…that career path I wanted, God took a look at my little plan…tore it up and now all I have is Him. God controls everything….he has created us for a purpose (2 Corinthians 5:5) and the plans he has for us is beyond what society or any human being can fathom ( 1 Corinthians 2:9). So stop worrying about today…tomorrow….10 years from now and wake up and look at what God has done RIGHT NOW. When you start looking at life through the lens of gratefulness…things become so much more beautiful, believe me. We all having a living spirit and we can truly bless someone each and every day of our lives. 

God has a plan FOR YOU….not your mother’s plan…your father’s plan….your boyfriend’s plan…..your roommate’s plan….You have your own special mission. So please keep that in your heart and let it motivate you. 

Okay…I have to get some rest…I have to drive back to cville tomorrow.

Please feel free DM me/FB me/Email me (trw8aw@virginia.edu) if anyone ever needs to talk. You are not alone in your journey in the world. Be blessed<3

breakdown…growth…empowerment

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So I totally wrote this post earlier but it completely deleted by accident, but I am re-writing it because I know someone may need to hear this. AND my brain is foggy so I can’t even remember what I wrote -____-

Recently, I got myself into an uncomfortable situation in which my nice personality was taken advantage of. This pretty much has been building since June and I let it happened. I have always been the type of person to let things slide, observe, and overanalyze situations. Thursday it really hit the fan for me and I was seriously broken. I cried and I felt like I was no longer the strong, confident person I thought I was.

But I realized that this is one of my weaknesses that I seriously need to work on with the help of God. Instead of rebuking myself, yesterday, I recommitted myself to God. I recommited my mind, heart, and body to Him. I allowed the devil to attack my mind all weekend instead of truly realizing that I have a purpose, even in a hard time. Once I turned it over to God, everything became bearable and I realized everything would be okay.

I am writing this to let people know that you can accept your weaknesses but realize that they are far and few in comparison to the strength you have in God. I realized that we can’t dwell on these weaknesses, but use this as a motivation to seek and find your strengths.

We live in a world were we are constantly given contradictory images. We live in a world were everyone believes in freedom, but people are still bogged down in mental/fiscal/relational slavery. We want people to accept themselves, but we rebuke those who different and rebuke ourselves when we make mistakes. But instead of dwelling on what you don’t have, pray for purpose–> pray, ask God for what he wants in your life, create a dream board, release the stress (yoga, meditation, gym), and surround yourself with positive people. Just want to extend some inspiration to let someone know, you are not defined your weaknesses, but you are strong in God.

I would also like to share my recent discovery in the blogsphere. Recently, I came across Heather Lindsey and the Pinky Promise Movement. Her blog has been so influential in my life in just a week. Pretty much this blog questions the meaning of “dating”. Heather went through a time where all she wanted was to date, date, and have sex with randoms. She used these vain relationships to feel a void. She defined randoms as guys that claim to want you, but only want sex. They don’t want to commit to you or God, but what you to give up everything. After really connecting with God, Heather stopped dating and having sex after God told her, her purpose. She met her husband in church and walked past him for THREE YEARS. When they finally spoke, she said that after a twenty minute convo, she knew that he was her husband.  Heather stated that God placed her in a position to prepare her for him and their current ministry. Out of her experiences, she created the Pinky Promise movement. The Pinky Promise movement is an amazing movement to challenge women to commit their bodies to God. This includes drawing closer to God and like women and not having sex with Randoms or dating men that don’t have a women’s best interest at hand.  Now people may think that this is conservative (that thought is of the devil to prevent anyone from drawing closer to God), but I am all for it I rather save myself a billion heartbreaks and prepare myself for the right one than putting up with randoms that don’t care about me. I feel like this promise definitely takes courage and strength. But it allows so many women to focus on truly defining their purpose in life. There are Pinky Promise groups all over the US!I am actually thinking of creating a group, so if anyone is interested hit me up. Visit heatherlindsey.blogspot.com or the pinkypromisemovement.com.

Positive movements such as this can help people shake their weaknesses and truly focus on purpose.

Be blessed everyone

peace/love

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